fattestgirlever

Excellent day. I ate well, walked five miles, drank tons of water and feel good! Well, actually I feel sore because I walked so much…but that’s a good thing, right? I might soak in the tub a bit tonight. I took last week off from execise b/c I was sick and it’s amazing how in one week I can feel out of shape!

On another note, I live in CT and the weather is going to be changing very soon. I need to find a new way to work out when it’s cold and snowy outside. I still have to be careful of my knee, but I was thinking of maybe joining a gym or getting a trainer with some friends. I also have a Wii Fit I never use and saw that Wii has some other exercise games as well. Anyway, if anyone’s got some ideas for me, I’ll take ‘em!

Hope everyone is having a great day!

This weekend was not the greatest for eating, as it is TOM. I didn’t eat anything too terrible, but definitely ate too much! I don’t know that I’ll ever get to the point where the first couple of days of TOM don’t make me want to binge, even just a little.

 On a better note, I exercised a ton. We took the kids to the aquarium on Saturday and walked and walked for hours. Then had pizza! Today was beautiful so we went to the park and to walk on the beach.

I am feeling the salt and chocolate cravings go away, so tomorrow will be better. My goal for the week is to exercise five days, eat well and drink tons of water.

Hope everyone had a good weekend!

For the past two years I have started eating at Halloween and stayed on a binge through New Year’s. Not this year. I had maybe three (mini) pieces of candy this week, did a healthy shopping yesterday and am not only not gaining weight this holiday season, but I will be losing! I always give myself a pass this time of year, but this year is different. I have lived in a beach community for a year and a half, and while it is beautiful, I have been miserable. I wear an enormous cover up all summer, never go in the water with the kids and feel like the fattest mom on the beach. So this year my goal is to lose ten more pounds by Jan. 1st. That would be a total loss of about 25 pounds (I’m not weighing in, so don’t know my exact number) and will put me in a great position to start 2010. Then I will have six months to lose the rest (about 35-40) and I can wear a bathing suit in June! Maybe I will buy a cute suit and hang it in my room as a reminder of what I’m doing. It’s hard when I am looking at pie and other treats to remember why I’m doing this, but summer will be here before I know it! Plus, it’s incredibly easy for me to gain ten pounds over the holidays and then be too depressed come January to do anything about it. I WILL NOT DO THAT AGAIN THIS YEAR!!!!

Hope everyone is having a great day!

Hello Buddyslimmers! Hope all is well. I have been sick as a dog for almost two weeks, but am finally coming out of it. In that time was Halloween, so of course I had volunteered for the kids school parties, I couldn’t miss trick or treating, my own school work was piling up…my life’s been crazy!

Anyway, the good news is that I’ve been doing well with eating (not as much exercising due to raging chest cold) and am focused on my goals for November. They are:

1. blog every day to stay focused and accountable

2. eat sensibly: low carb, no sugar, tons of fruits and veggies, relatively low calorie (1200-1300)

3. exercise at least three times a week

 4. I will not weight myself! I know other people can do this and not go insane, but I am not one of them!

School is very busy for me right now, but I can finally see the finish line (for this semester, anyway) which is Dec 4th. After that I am free until the end of January. I am looking forward to some rest and time with the family where I am not looking at the clock!

Hope anyone who reads this is having a great day and meeting their goals!

So my little one is sick and I baked her cookies. And then I had one. Did I say one? I meant four. Five. Ack! Stop me!

I have not been on buddyslim lately b/c I am extremely stressed and busy and not eating well. When I’m not eating well I don’t blog b/c I don’t want to admit it, and when I don’t blog and check in with my buddies I don’t eat well. Hmmmm…sensing a pattern here.  (I believe you called that one, Nancy)

I did go on a nice long walk today, and I did have a sensible salad for lunch, but those cookies were a mistake, obviously. The other day I said my main problem was moderation, which is true, but my other main problem is how I use food to deal with life. Stressed? eat. Sad? eat. Happy? eat.  Sick? eat. Someone I love stressed/sad/happy/sick? Bake! Then eat.

 I have lost only two pounds this month. It’s not working for me to add in calories because I’m f***ed up and can’t stop eating. I did better starving. It’s true! I do better at 1,000 calories than 1,400. I also do better with no carbs. It seems I can turn myself around 180 degrees from a binge and be fine. Hungry, but fine. What I can’t do is live in the middle. I don’t know why (other than that I am f***ed up).

Need to come up with a new plan for November. Maybe back to no carbs? Probably not 1,000 calories, but not as much as 1,400. I don’t know. If you’re still reading this blog, by now  you are as sick of me as I am.

Haven’t blogged as I’ve been crazy busy with school and then sick children. I weighed myself today and I haven’t lost anything in two weeks, which is pretty frustrating. I’ve been eating well, just not consistently. 1500 calories one day, 1100 the next. My schedule is such that I cannot plan perfect meals everyday, so I end up eating on the fly. Well, I guess I could plan perfect meals everyday, I just don’t always do it! So, maybe I should work on that!

I’m looking forward to this semester being over…it has been very stressful. But, on a good note, my knee is feeling great and I am walking more!

Hope everyone is having a great day!

Today went well. I am desperately trying to finish a very long paper, so I was not focused on eating! I came in at about 1200 calories today and meant to eat more but haven’t had a chance. Maybe I’ll have a bowl of cheerios or a piece of pb toast later.

 I am back up to walking 3 miles now that my knee is better. I didn’t go today, but went yesterday and will go again tomorrow. Whatever is in that electrode thing (i’m so clueless about medical stuff!) is really working. My knee finally feels better and stronger than it did before surgery, so I am looking forward to increasing my workouts (and my calories) soon.

Also, I weighed myself and I am holding stready at 16 pounds lost. I had really hoped to be at 20 pounds on Nov. 1, but I don’t know about that. I’m not going to weigh myself until then, so we’ll see.

 Hope everyone has a great day!

I would have to say my main weakness is moderation. I either eat everything in sight or I starve myself. The in-between area is very difficult for me, and since I love food, I usually end up on a binge. Hence, my fat a##.  I decided to up my calories this week and yesterday I did not do well. I like the idea of having a little treat, but if I keep having “a little” it ends up a lot. Even though I didn’t eat anything particularly unhealthy yesterday (no chips or cake or anything like that), I simply ate too much. My goal is 1,400 calories and I definitely had over 1,600 yesterday. So today I had about 1,100 to compensate and I feel ok with that. I wasn’t all that hungry today anyway, so it was pretty easy. And, what I ate was healthy so I feel good about that. I read once that it’s ok to take a two or three day approach to calorie goals, and I’m wondering if other people do that…and if so, does it work?

Today I ate:

cup of kashi cereal w/ skim milk for breakfast

chicken and an apple for lunch

crab cake an slice of restaurant bread for dinner

small biscotti for snack

1/2 ginger ale

I hope anyone who reads this had a great day….and thank you for all the support and comments, I really appreciate it!

Today was a good day. I’ve decided to allow myself 1,400 calories a day, which seems like a lot to me, but hopefully will still allow me to lose. I was trying to stick to 1,200 (and if I’m being honest, I was really trying for 1,000) and was becoming obsessed with every little thing I ate…and feeling guilty if it was too delicious or filling. 1,400 feels better so far, but like I said, it’s only the first day. I like that with the added cushion of 200 calories I can have a little treat, or a second serving of something that is really satisfying. Also, it’s like a little extra money in your pocket…you can save it or spend it!

Today I had a cookie (and didn’t feel guilty!) because my nine yr old made cookies for a project she’s doing on Day of the Dead. They’re shaped like skulls, but still taste yummy. It was nice not to feel like I had to deprive myself to feel successful, and also not to binge because I let my hunger get the best of me. So thanks to the buddyslimmers who gave me good advice and support!

It’s pouring and freezing in CT today, but I still manged to have a great day with the family…hope everyone else had a great day too.

Yesterday was a bad day, but today is better! I was very out of sorts (and hungry!) yesterday and kind of let it get me down but I am feeling better today. I have a lot going on right now (as does everyone) and my usual way to cope with stress is to eat, but I don’t…so maybe I’ll start smoking again? Just kidding.

My youngest started first grade is September, so I finally started graduate school. I’ve been wanting to go for so long (I graduated from college in 1990!) but one thing or another kept me from it…mostly laziness on my part, I’m sure. But anyway, I thought now would be a good time, and it is, but man is it stressful! The first time I went to school all I had to take care of was myself…and I thought that was hard!

Also, a drunk driver crashed in front of our house at 3:00 AM on Friday. He was fine, everything was fine, but all the emergency vehicles and whatnot kept me up all night so I was stressed, hungry and sleep-deprived all day Friday. Anyway, I fell better today and am re-thinking my 1200 calorie goal. It just might not be possible for me to eat 1200 calories and not become unhealthily obsessed with food and depriving myself. I may go up to 1400 and see if I can still lose weight. It’s worth a try!

Hope everyone has a great weekend!